I was reading a post by lifeasiinterpret today titled “Enjoy the delicious part of life as well“. This post really hit home. I have been super stressed out lately but I have been working on stress reduction so I wasn’t quite sure why I’ve been feeling like this so much. My anxiety level has been sky high.
I worked on my budget and got it under control. Decluttering was going great for awhile. I spent more time at work to figure a few things out so that my job wasn’t so stressful. My kids are all doing great. What’s left? Why have I been so stressed out that I can hardly function? Why does every little thing bother me so much?
Thank goodness for the 4-H horse project. It got me out of the house today even though I didn’t really feel like going. I haven’t felt like doing anything and this was no exception. Strange – because horses are my passion and the barn we were going to is one of my favorite places to be. I never want to leave once I’m there. It was the getting there that was the hard part but I made it.
I’m so glad I did. I feel so at peace there. I have my own horse but I fell off of him years ago and have never regained the confidence to ride him. He was young and had some fun at my expense. I don’t trust him and probably never will even though he’s a great horse – “a real gem” as a lot of people have called him. My daughter rides him and shows him now and they’ve formed a great bond. I work with him on the ground but I have no intention of riding him again for awhile, if ever.
As I was leaving that barn last night, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I’m not doing the one thing that brings me so much joy – riding horses. I spend a ton of time with them but never riding. I have my mini horse that pulls the cart but that’s not the same thing either and she’s not really a gem, she’s kind of a naughty little pony and not much fun to work with.
I decided that I really need to go to that barn we were at and take some lessons. It’s going to take me a few months before I will have the money but I want to save up and do this for myself. It’s $40 per lesson and they want you to pay for 10 lessons at a time. One of the trainers is really good working with people on building confidence. I want to do this. I need for riding to be a part of my life again. I’ve been spending so much time and energy on my house that it’s time to bring some delicious back into my life! I’m looking forward to it.